ginadellapenta

once again

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 05:56:46 GMT

i have gotten myself into having another confusing and emotional day
i find that talking to you makes everything feel right again

end of skewl year

Fri, 23 May 2008 01:03:36 GMT

i have 4 more days left of school until summer i can't wait.
lately i've been so happy with my frandz and bf that i really have no complaints.
i'm at such a high that it feels like nothing can bring me down...
besides finals next week ewww.

everything

Fri, 09 May 2008 02:24:45 GMT

is wonderful :)

feeling

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 02:53:00 GMT

so much better thank heavens

honestly

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 22:20:37 GMT

finding things that make you happy in life is so difficult that when you find them you have to hold onto them as long as possible, whether it's friends or a hobby that makes you happy. things seem so perfect at times and then you cross that line of what seems right and what really is. i'm not gonna sit here and fuck things up any longer. i hate when things come crashing down around me. i need to find what makes me truly happy because that's the only way to get through all of the bullshit in the world. this isn't making any sense at all and my emotions feel like someone put them in all bottle and shook them up. idk how to put things back to normal but that's what i'd like more than anything in the world. funny how things can change in a few days. friday i was feeling like i was at the top of the world and with yesterday and today, everything feels lost. idk what happened but all that i've come to realize once again is that i know who my true friends are. no matter how many mistakes i've made i learn from my lesson, but i keep making new ones. i wish things would get back to normal, whatever normal really is.

wow

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 07:05:39 GMT

i can honestly say that i love everything right now and i love my friends. life couldn't be better.
my birthday is in 4 days and everything really feels like its falling into place.
tonight was fun.

??

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 19:49:14 GMT

going back to school this week is such a drag.
i can't wait until summer.
i can honestly say i'm not interested in anyone right now and i wish that someone would come along to change that.
my birthday is on the 17th, yay me?
i doubt i'll be doing anything special for it.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 21:31:28 GMT

spring break has been amazing so far, lalala i love everything!

everything

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 00:19:07 GMT

has been so different lately and i feel distant from everyone/everything that i am used to. it's too much change for me.

wow

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 18:08:59 GMT

this weekend was way too stressful. some things have been sorted out and cleared up but i don't even know who i can trust anymore. i'm really confused and hurt by everything. hopefully things will work out with time.
great time to try something new. NOT.

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 01:56:37 GMT

so this is a little late but langerado was amazing on sunday. tried things i didn't plan on lolol.
school is taking a big shit on my life and leaving me absolutely no time during the week to do anything.
thank god spring break is soon! it sucks that catholic school and public schools have different dates for break but whatever.
tomorrow is wednesday and wednesdays are always nice because you get that feeling of it being close to the weekend.
i've been sick since last thursday and i'm glad that i'm starting to feel well.
oh and i'm frustrated as hell right now and i think i like you and wish you'd take the initiative to do something.
whatever things never work out how i want them to.
everything is blahhh.

yeeeeeeee~

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 00:48:45 GMT

i'm extremely happy with the recent decisions that i've made. everything always works out in the end.
i didn't want it to be this way in the end but if you are going to behave in this way then there's nothing i can do to change that.
anyways i stayed home from school today and all day i thought about what's going on in my life. i'm so happy with how things have been lately and i'm definitely ready for a little change, or for something to happen with a certain someone. i think enough hints have been given and i hope that this weekend reflects that.
i've also found myself back into art lately. that sounds kinda dumb, but for a period of a few months at the beginning of the school year i took a long break from drawing. i definitely missed it but taking a break from it has made me appreciate it even more. or maybe a certain trippp is what got me even more into it. idk what it was exactly but i'm glad to be drawing again.
i think i'm doing poorly in school and the quarter ends next friday. looks like i gotta work my ass off next week to get some good grades before the gradebooks close.
oh and i wanna go camping somewhere sometime soon. idk with who but i wanna go.
my birthday is in exactly a month and 11 days. i don't think i'm doing anything special for it. turning 16 isn't that big of an achievement for me when i'm always the youngest out of everyone anyways.
yah so that's an update on my life. <---gay.

D:

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 03:19:25 GMT

i only use lj to bitch. whatever...so lately i've been so confused with everything that idk what to do.
it's not the kinda thing where i can get advice from someone either.
i don't know what choice would make me happier, but essentially, all i really wanna know is what's right.
life has been nothing short of perfect lately minus my confusion.

:/

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 21:50:25 GMT

everything lately seems to have changed so fast. like if i look back before winter break, it seems so different then now. sometimes i almost miss when things were like that. i am happy with how things are now. but i can't help but miss how things were. it's dumb to be talking about shit like this in a lj post but honestly i doubt that anyone would really understand anymore. i don't feel like myself sometimes. i was so different a year ago even. i guess this kinda thing happens to everyone and it just hasn't hit me yet. but i've never had everything change so drastically before. i feel like i don't even know certain people anymore. it seems that i can't call the people that i am supposed to be able to when i need them because i know they don't call me. idk i've been sitting home by myself bored all day, and i've just been doing a lot of thinking. i wouldn't say that things are bad it's just that everything's really different, and i miss certain people and the way things were with them.

uhhh

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 03:44:43 GMT

shits dumb.

:)

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 18:38:49 GMT

everything has been going so well lately that i can't believe it.
i have the worst hangover ever from last night but whatever it ruled.
mad props to amanda.

hope next weekend is just as good.

finally

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 05:01:45 GMT

everything that happened this weekend settled down and has been sorted out.
i've learned a lot of lessons and realized that the choices that i make affect others a lot.

cloverfield was a bad movie, no plot line whatsoever unless you are a dork and looked everything up behind the movie on the internet.
i stayed up last night until like 6 talking and shit with brittany. made me feel better about a lot of things. realized a lot of things.
walked like 3 miles today to get a slushie. made me realize how much i love grape slushies, i'm willing to walk 3 miles for them.
i also discovered that these people near my house have horsies and they are really cute. >.<
trying to finish the autobiography of charles manson i borrowed from brit.

my weekend started off horribly and ended up being pretty relaxing.

whatever maybe this week will be better.

uhhHhH

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 14:25:37 GMT

so basically last night was the worst night of my life.
i made terrible decisions and messed everything up beyond fixing.
i'm sorry for being such a fuck up.
i hope that everyone didn't get in that much trouble.

first one

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:48:46 GMT

i'm taking a break from studying for biology, and i had nothing to do, so i made one of these.

lately i've been realizing new things about people around me, not necessarily good things either.
it has made me appreciate my friends more than i did.
other than that everything is going really well.
my birthday is in about three months. i'm rather excited.
maybe because it's my sixteenth but for some reason i don't think that's why. i don't consider that as much of a landmark as most people.
fuck i should probably get my permit. i keep forgetting.
school is stressing me out and i need motivation to get good grades. tonight i discussed with my mom the idea that if i got straight a's, then she'd let me get my monroe pierced. that didn't fly and she said no.
thank god it's almost friday cause this week is dragging on like no other.